Hello World

Its interesting that the default first post for Wordpress says “hello world.” As a shy introvert, sometimes that is my biggest fear – revealing myself to the outside, to people who might judge, to those who don’t think about the hurtful things they say.

The problem is that I feel like I am an extrovert trapped in an introvert’s body, and I can’t break free of the fear and trepidation of leaving my introspective safe place. If you ask anyone I work with (I have an extroverted work persona I developed over many years as an assistant,) they would probably be surprised to hear that I am shy and introverted. In fact, I have mentioned it to a few people I am closer to and they just don’t believe it, because my work me is much different than my real me.  I know I can be outgoing and sociable when I want to be because I do it all day at work, but I am so mentally exhausted from it by the time I get home that I know its not a natural state for me.

So many really good blogs focus on one topic or niche that the writer is really good at. The thing about me is that I am more of a jack of all trades, master of none. I am pretty decently skilled at several things, but not enough to be called an expert at any one of them. This has made the prospect of blogging fairly daunting for me, because who wants to read a nonspecific blog from someone who isn’t really super great at any one thing? I’m not sure what my goals are with this blog, but I do know that there is a lot going on in my brain that really wants some sort of creative outlet to pour into, and this is probably it. We’ll see what happens!

Alyssa Johnson